I guess the hardest thing about wedding planning, for me, is going at it by myself. It's very rare that I have a bridesmaid help me plan at all. Whenever I try to get everyone together, they seem to all be busy. I'm at the point I want to ask, "Do you really want to be in this wedding? Are you too busy?" I beg and beg for help, and my pleads go unanswered. Maybe I'm trying too hard and pushing too hard. I'm feeling really depressed about the wedding lately though because I feel I'm funding, planning, and deciding everything myself. I should just marry myself by myself.